Logan Turns 2

Today my heart is filled with many different thoughts and feelings.  Today is our son's second birthday.  While on the one hand this day is extremely difficult (for obvious reasons) I want to take today to focus on the joys and blessings that Logan has brought into our lives.

I feel extremely blessed to have been given such an amazing miracle in my life.  When we first found out about our little Logan my heart sang.  I remember looking at those first photos of him and just thinking he is absolutely perfect and absolutely our son.  I was so thrilled to finally know that someone was going to be calling me 'mom'.  It was a dream that I had wished for my whole life.  

I remember meeting Logan for the first time.  I had so many worries that first visit: was he going to like us, would I be a good mother, would I know how to meet his needs, and take care of him.  I remember how all those doubts and worries just melted away when I got to hold him in my arms.  My heart was overjoyed and so extremely thankful to Heavenly Father for blessing me in such a grand manor.

Although these months and years have been extremely difficult and hard (something I would never wish on any mother to have to go through), they have also been filled with some of the sweetest and most wonderful memories.  I have found such great comfort and love in knowing that even when I can't hold and kiss my son, I know that Heavenly Father loves him and is watching over him.

So today I will try and focus on the good, and the many joys that I can find in my life (which there are many).  I feel so blessed to know that even though our family is separated at this time, I have the assurance that one day we will be an eternal and forever family.  I am so grateful to be the wife of an amazing husband, and the mother to two wonderful children.  

I would like to close by sharing something I read this morning that gave me great peace and comfort.  It is in the bible dictionary under prayer. 

"As soon as we learn the true relationship in which we stand toward God (namely, God is our Father, and we are his children), then at once prayer becomes natural and instinctive on our part.  Many of the so-called difficulties about prayer arise from forgetting this relationship.  Prayer is the act by which the will of the Father and the will of the child are brought into correspondence with each other.  The object of prayer is not to change the will of God, but to secure for ourselves and for others blessings that God is already willing to grant, but that are made conditional on our asking for them.  Blessings require some work or effort on our part before we can obtain them."

I'm grateful that I have a Father that I can turn to at any time.  I also know that some of the sweetest blessings in life come after we put in the hardest work.  I guess I only have one more thing to say, and that's Happy Birthday Logan, I love you forever and always!